For me, it's what do I plan to do next with this blog. Where do I want to take it? How do I want to continue? What do I write about to keep people engaged? There comes a time where you can't just write about your life and you need to write more engaging and more traffic driven posts, sad but true.
I've been asking myself this for a while. I just recently gained over 100 followers on my BlogLovin account! :) It's not too terribly much, but I'm fairly excited about it. 22, on the way to a Master's degree in Business and Marketing, and between schooling and work, I find time to write randomness on a blog that I'm not sure if many people read. I know that I have not put as much time into the actual writing and planning of this blog, but I really do not have the time to do such a thing. With work 40 hours a week and schooling just about the same, I don't find enough time. That's an excuse, a good one, but an excuse none-the-less.
I think I have a plan.
I've been toying with the idea of officially writing down the stories that I play out in my head before I finally am able to fall asleep at night. As I wrote that, I realized how weird that may have sounded to some people... So please, let me clarify. I have a mind that almost never shuts down. I can easily lay in bed all night and think. Whether it was about stupid things or somehow managing to work myself up into a fit because I was worrying too much, I suffered for many years of not being able to sleep. But just like I found ways around (to deal with) my social and nervous anxiety, I found a way around the "restless mind" at night. A few years ago, I found a way that set my mind at easy and actually put me to sleep.
Some people count sheep, I craft a mental movie including characters, scene settings, dialogue, etc., to lull myself into slumber. I've heard other people do this too, or at least a few, so I know I'm not a total freakizoid.
Although there have been many different story lines over many different years, I always come back to the same story, with the same characters, and never make it to an ending (I always fall asleep before I can make it to an ending!) I've written short stories before, some were very dark back in my high school years, with my then best friend; I actually still have those stories saved. She was always the better writer, but I think I can take what I've learned over the past few years and craft a story line that I can release on my blog.
I'm not going to say what the overall premise of the story is yet, because I'm a prude and I don't want someone to steal my ideas. But it is also because there would be a large time gap between either now and when I start writing, or now and when I'll write the first few "chapters." I've been thinking about doing some during school breaks, like winter and summer, but we'll see how it goes. I'll never forgot the story line.
It's been years, and always the same story line.